Losing It

I can't take it. I'm sitting at home alone, as my baby sleeps, crying as I touch my fat rolls.

I'm 149 lbs right now and I'm fucking humongous.

Here's thinspo to make myself feel better.

I've been away WAY TOO LONG!

I apologize for being gone for so long. Honestly it's been too long even for my taste!

Where to start, we all know I got laid off from Wal-Mart (fuck that place) and litterally all my friends from there have either quit or been fired, so no one goes there anymore!

The baby is getting very very big! I feel him kick every day and he is going to be quite the handful I already know!

We play him music everyday and he kicks along like he's dancing. What a character already!

I want him to be here already, all my girl-friends on facebook who were pregnant have now had their babies, and I'm sick of seeing everyone else's baby pictures, I want to see mine!!!!

I know, I know he will be here soon enough, but I'm pretty over the pregnancy thing.

Dale has been really supportive, and we're looking for houses still. Hopefully this deal goes through with my grandpa because we would have a 3 bedroom house for cheaper then my apt. Hopefully hopefully. :D

If you guys are on Chronicles you read my post, which will have some of the same photos, but I'm gonna post them here as well, but hey whatever!

Here's my munchkin at 17 weeks (and my phone if you were interested) His head is all big compared to his little leggy's!

Here's my thumbsucker at 21 weeks. Same position but so much bigger!!!! I love him already and all his attitude!!

Dale and I taking pictures to see my bellies progression! This little man is taking up so much of that!!!

First family picture :D Dale Baby and I. I'm not sure why I love the concept of this picture so much, but I do!

And for those of you worried about my kitten, here she is! Pretending to be a pair of slippers or something. She really likes to think she can blend in with stuff! <3 baby="baby" her.="her." loves="loves" p="p" she="she" snuggle="snuggle" the="the" to="to" too="too">

Here's the theme of Olivers room for when we have our baby shower!!

I know it's silly but if you guys want an invitation totally leave a comment! Because I so will :D

So thats all I really have for pictures. I really miss you guys! Tell me about your lives!!!

Happt Birthday Pretty Girl!

It's my little sisters birthday today. She was so cute, I dropped cookies off at her school and she got absolutely so excited, I can't even wait to see her face at her surprise party!

Today is basically a WTF day

Seriously.

I don't know what happened, Dale litterally texted me and was like "I'm staying at someone elses house for a few nights, I'm frustrated, I don't want to take it out on you, I'm shutting off my phone, love you see you on Thursday." Am I the only person thats like.

Uhm. What?!

I don't even know what happened.

I'm trying not to fall into a funk because of this, but, I'm failing.

Change of Pace

I needed one, so I refreshed the blog. Added baby to it, tried to find pregnancy thinspo, but couldn't, so here it is. I really need to start posting more to get all my blah out.

Got to finnally work today, felt so nice to be out of my house! I didn't even care about the money.

I feel so popular!

Today, I logged onto my Facebook, seriously like six people I haven't talked to in forever started messaging me about how I was doing. Felt nice to be remembered. I feel popular today :D

Wal-Mart, Houses and Babies, oh my!

Let's see I haven't posted in so long, I feel I need to start though, because my life has been crazy.

Let's see. where to start?

Dale and I have been looking for houses/townhomes.

My studio isn't going to do, so we're hoping for something bigger. We started looking, but honestly we're so broke right now we have to wait until about Janurary to find a place.

That way we will have plenty of time to move in ( I hope) and unpack (I hope) since they changed my due date to Feburary 5th. The reason we are looking so late is because my lease on the studio isn't up until
Feb. 20th. Which I DO NOT! want to move with a newborn, but don't want a broken lease on my record, and simply can't afford it. Sooooo, yeah.

When they changed my date they also found that I was earlier then I thought so currently I'm only about 13 weeks and 6 days.

I think I'm having a boy, I can't explain why, I just think I am.

Thats the baby though :D Healthy little wiggle worm.

I miss everybody.

I lost my job at Wal-Mart, honestly I'm really not too worried, I found a non-taxed nanny job that will pay me the same amount as Wal-Mart.

I'm horrified of gaining 30. I only eat when I'm hungry and only healthy foods, I know it mostly comes from the baby and I'll lose it soon after, I just know that I'm going to try and get to my goal weight after I have the baby.

how's your girl's lives?!

Missing you!