I Dont Hate Him

I dont hate Matt for breaking up with me.

I understand why he did it. And I commend his honesty.

I pray that we will meet sometime in the future and continue our lives together.

On another note. I just want to be thin.

A twig.

And I will.

I dont want to eat forever.

Heart Break. Pt 2

I want to put a fucking stake through my chest.

I never want to feel this pain again.

Oliver deserves more a lose mother who ruined his family.

I never want to feel this pain again.

I just want to slice up my arms and feel myself completly drain of all emotion.

I never want to feel this pain again.

I just want to die.

Heart Break

Matt broke up with me.

and I'm devestated.

He wants to be friends, and he says its not me, it's him. He says hes not mature enough for a relationship.

But I'm broken to pieces.

All I want is him.

Have you ever felt so sad, that you'd rather die then feel that pain? Ever felt so alone that even in a room full of people who love you, you feel desolate?

I just want to die. I want to cut bad.

I've never been a cutter.

I want to starve. I'm fasting for 36 hrs.

I wan to check m yself into a mental institute.

I wanted to do self improvement prompts on here. But right now.

I just want death to consume me.

I've never been worth someones devoted love and effort.  I ruined my relationship with Dale, but he didnt want to put in the effort to work things out.

I just want to be good enough.

Happy New Years

Happy New Years

Keeping to my resolution and got Olivers room spotless. Yet to get the rest of my house clean. Ate about 900 calories, but with my cleaning I have burned plenty of calories.

Thin.Thin. Thin.