All Over the Place

Alright, SO I kinda went MIA there for a while. SO let me just say, the holidays, FUCKED ME UP!

I failed at any sane eating. Miserably.

But Christmas was good, the babies were so cute, and everyone loved their gifts. I got a Kindle (loving it!) and a couple of gift cards for clothes (loving it even more :D)

So then, on the 26th (which I deem as the shittiest day of the year) It's right before my birthday and right after Christmas. Anyways. I went shopping and for the first time, since I was about, 12. I fit into a size 9. I understand thats still not very good, but hey, this is progress for me. I bought some other really cute clothes.

Then yesterday was my birthday, and it was fucking fantastic! First I went and got my nails done with Sarah and Autumn, I got them to match some shoes I have, and they look so nice! We went to the mall and got some photo booth pictures (which is my ultimate favorite thing to do!) and we met some guys (one guy was really into me, and he got my number, and I got his.)

HE's 2 years younger (17) but almost 18, but I dunno, I still feel weird. He's mega sexy, and mega sweet.

Then, I went to the club last night with my friends, and It was possibly the most fun I've had for a very very very long time. First off, I felt prettier then ever, and I was just so excited. We got there, and just took so many pictures, and then I was dancing with guy, and we were making out like crazy (didn't even know his name) and the best part about it was, it felt so damn good. I didn't even care, no one to judge me, no one to tease me, I felt so sexy, and this guy was eating me up (almost literally).

When I came to this epiphany.

A few years back, my best friends all sort of ditched me, and since then, I've been pretty down and out, kept to myself, not many friends, and they're alot younger if I have them.

Which with my old friend, I used to take my camera EVERYWHERE! I wouldn't leave the house without it, and everytime we'd end up with like 100 photos of absolutely nothing!

And yesterday was the first time that had happened in a long time. I mean, I have snippets of little peices of things, but in those picture I'm just so over weight it's unbearable. And I think, with me losing this weight, I'm regaining my confidence (and my camera skills) because last night, I didn't care, we took 1000 damn photos, and I think I looked sexy!

So today I'm back on track for ABC diet. Third times a charm, right? New Years resolution? Get down to my Goal weight by summer.