Way too fat.

lright, so. today.

I've been pretty awful, binging binging binging binging binging.

And today I finnally ate 500 calories.

Only 500 calories.

Well what happened, was...

I got off work at three today, and I was full and happy, and going to go to the gym.

BUT THEN! I was promised by my mother I could go to the gym today. So, then, when I got invited to the movies with some coworkers, I was like HELL YES!

So since my truck broke down I call my mom and ask if I can go.

And she goes "Really? Can't they give you a ride?" FUCKING IRRITATING! So I told her no, because I'm too embarassed to ask the lovely girls for a ride.

And I came home.

And she was playing on the fucking computer (as she always does) and guilted me for not wanting to watch the kids. I didn't get to go to the gym, and wasn't getting to try my new workout videos. SO THEN!

She was bitching that I need to take them to McDonalds. So I weighed myself. 154.8. FUCK! FUCK! FUCK!

So then. I take the kids to McDonalds, and because as I was walking out the door my mom was bitching at me, she str4essed me out so bad, I downed almost 2 1/2 cheeseburgers, and a sprite, and 1/4 of those unbaked cookie dough squares.

Because I was stressed.

Fuck food. I need to be skinny, I wish food would just go away. MY binging is out of control!!!!

Mood- Depressed..